Waiting

Yesterday, I went with my wife for a medical appointment. The appointment was at 10.30. We were in the office at 10.20. But the 10 minutes of wait seemed to be forever. I have noticed this happening time and again.

When you really want time to move slow, like when you are preparing for your exams, having someone for lunch and the food is not yet ready, packing at the last minute for a vacation, running to catch a train/bus/flight, time runs really fast.

When you want time to pass away like when waiting in line, stuck in traffic, completed the exam and waiting for the time to complete to hand over the answer sheets, time moves like a snail.

Crazy time 🙂

Nostalgic Dress

Yesterday, when I opened up the closet to find a dress to wear to office, I picked the dress that I bought about 8 years ago. This brought back memories from the year, which is what I plan to share here.

It was the end of the third year of my college life. I and all my class mates where in the hostel that summer, in preparation of the campus placements. For the campus interviews, we were required to wear business formals. I and my friends decided to get a pair of new formals to wear for the interview. This was the occasion that I bought this dress. It was a fun outing shopping, not minding the sweltering heat of Chennai’s summer. If I remember the shop right, it was Textile India.

The first company that came to conduct campus interviews was Cognizant Technology Solutions (CTS). I wore the formals I bought to the interview, and I got placed. It was my first job. After that I never got a chance to wear the dress in college. The next time I wore it was on the first day of my job at CTS. That’s why this dress bears a special connection to my career, in its own unique way.

Strangers

Anyone driving on a road, alone or in the night when everyone else is sleeping might have experienced this at one time or other. You are driving and then you see another vehicle crossing you or following you or you following it. Even though you don’t know who is driving in the other vehicle, you somehow keep following or leading them, just to enjoy the company of the other one on the road. When the exit comes for you or the other vehicle, you part ways.

You really didn’t get to see or greet the other driver. He/she was a complete stranger. But you took them for company. There are such persons in life, whom you have never met, but they do play their part in your life. Why do we share this connection with anyone!

Strange are the ways of life!

Change

It is interesting how things change overtime in life. Sometimes for good, sometimes for bad, but it does change; true to the saying, ‘Change is the only constant’. For the past few months, I have been really busy, trying to fit into my current phase in life, ‘Being a Father’. The more that I see my kid and me, I am in deep awe of my father. I must have done the exact same things as a kid, and my dad would have experienced the same feelings that I experience now. Maybe, he might simply shrug his shoulders now, when I tell it to him.

I am inspired by nature’s way in the growth of a child. No one teaches a kid to suck for milk, or I never taught my kid to put hands on the eyes when sleepy, or crawl, or walk, or smile, or laugh, or get angry, or cry. Lots of things that the kid learns, but from whom?

When did I start noticing all these! Probably that is the way life works. To see, to learn and to get inspired from kids as much as they get inspired from us.

Dad

I am a father now. A wonderful and overwhelming feeling.

Wonderful, to see him, feel him, hold his hands, share his smile, think about what would be running in his tiny mind, to watch him sleep, move, hiccup, yawn. Wow, all children are beautiful, but mine is the most handsome (in my eyes :))

Overwhelming, changing diapers, cleaning, bathing, cooking, working, staying up all night for him to sleep, exhausting.

Few things that struck me upon becoming a dad.

  • My admiration for the strength of all moms, especially my wife increased multiple fold.
  • Respect for the patience of parents, including mine. Mom and Dad, you are the best.
  • Responsibility increased

Now its time to become a good dad to my son. Welcome to the world,  Son!

Decisions

Living in a country where the culture is totally different from the place that one is originally from provides with a lot of opportunities to have to make tough decisions.

Since I come from India (East) and I currently live in USA (West), the cultural divide is even more pronounced. When the emphasis is on relations and adjusting in India, the emphasis here in USA is on individuality and standing up for one’s right. Though both have their own advantages/disadvantages, trying to decide on what to choose is really tough.

I recently made a personal life decision. Even though I am mostly diplomatic, this decision was made out of pure personal choice and inclined towards Individualism. Will inclining towards the West pay off. Lets me wait and watch.

Money

Last week, I watched the tamil movie ‘Mankaatha’ with my college buddies. The film was all about money. The protagonist has even a dialogue “Money, Money, Money, I want the f**ing money”.

Similar to this our life has changed course and started to be more money oriented. In school and college, I was just like any other kid wanting to enjoy life as much as I can. Once I got out and started to work, the first few years I spent all my money on enjoying life, buying clothes, eating out, going out with friends, buying expensive mobile phones etc. But at some point, the simple truth struck. “More money is what you require to enjoy more.” Soon, money was not enough.

The room we stayed in after we got out of college was a single bedroom, where I stayed with four of my friends, the salary then was around INR 12000. This was not enough for me then and at the end of the month, I would have spent all. Same was the case with all my friends. Then it started raising. From 12000 it went to 36000. Even then at the end of the month, it was a close call.

Why is that we cannot get enough? Why do we crave for money? Why is it too addictive than any drug to long for money? I always wanted to least care of money and enjoy life. But now, if someone asks, I would say to enjoy life, you need money. Is it money that is all I require. No. I need people, friends and on top of it money.

Money, money, money… !